how hollow does it feel inside

Not posting too much here anymore

2005-05-14T21:30:56Z

Not posting too much here anymore I'll be posting on my new LJ brash_freak.

ADD IT!!!!

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Okies, hopefully I have got the message through.
*{Lauren}*

Honestly Honest

2005-05-04T04:42:54Z

Honestly Honest. Im not usually that honest on here for fear or hurting/scaring/causing reactions. Well I have decided to say FUCK THAT BULL and have created a new journal on which I am going to be fully 100% honest. It will be friends only and if you decide to friend me on it you better be best prepared to read me for what I truely am.

brash_freak

Go for it. If you dare.....

Colorado

2005-04-29T02:03:20Z

Today I got arrested. I was taken down to the police station on Randolph road. The reason was is that until this evening I was considered a runaway. Im going to live with my grandma in Colorado. I'm never going to Blake ever again. I guess this is good bye.

~Lauren

P.S. I love you all. And I will miss you terribly.

Future

2005-04-23T18:35:44Z

I KNOW IT LOOKS LONG BUT PLEASE READ IT!!! ESPECIALLY CASSI

Im happy about the future. If I go to Blake next year or Loch Raven High (in Baltimore) Im prepared to face either. I realize that I may have lost a few friends along the way of the bad path I was traveling down and there aren't words to describe how sorry I am for that. Part of me wishes that I could take back every bad thing Ive done and every drug Ive ever taken. But if I hadn't done that then I wouldn't be what I am today. Today I can honestly say that Im not a druggie, Im straightening my life out, Im happily single, I have some of the best friends in the world who care about me and want me to do good, and I value things alot more than I ever did before. I value myself and realize that I don't need to do drugs to escape or just because. I value people and my relationships with them. For instance I value a certain friend who I have lost. This is a friend who I was once very close to and learned alot from.

Cassi I have learned and grown so much with you. I realize that I was a stupid, blind bitch and that I may very well have lost being your friend forever. I realize that you tried to love me even when I didn't love myself and for that Im eternally greatful. Im so beyond sorry and I miss and love you so much. You're apart of my family, my own baby sister had a nickname for you even before she called me anything. We've been through alot together and I can't believe that that's all come to an end because of my stupidity. Im sorry again, I could never say that enough, and I hope that at some point you'll want to talk to me again and maybe even possibly forgive my dumbass. All the boring people know how to make pizza. I wish I with the one who lights shit on fire when she tries to make pizza and laughs about it with me for hours. I miss the one who was always there for me and who I never fully appreciated. I miss the one who I could tell anything (and I mean anything) to and I wouldn't be judged or yelled at. I miss the one who gave me graphic and horrific descriptions of what she would do to a certain person who hurt me deeply if she could ever get her hands on him. I miss Ginger. I miss Cassi. I miss my covenmate. I miss my blood sister. I miss YOU.

::nods::

To Everyone I Know

2005-04-11T19:57:29Z

Hey, this is to every person who has ever known me, I just want to let eveyone know:

NEVER DO DRUGS. MY LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP NOW BECAUSE OF THEM. I HONESTLY WANT TO LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE WITHOUT EVERY SEEING FUCKING JOINTS, BONGS, BOWLS, PILLS, DRINKS, PIPES, POWDER, OR ANY OF THAT SHIT EVER AGAIN.

Yes, today hell has offically frozen over and Lauren Townsend is no longer a fucking druggie.

All I can ask for now is help. If anyone who reads this could just send a little of that my way it'd be great.

Sincerely, Me

Last Post for awhile...

2005-03-11T02:06:36Z

This is going to be my last post for awhile. I have no idea what is going to happen.

Tonight Im going to finish packing, then tommorow Im bringing it all and hoping that this won't go over too bad with my parents.

Who the fuck am I shitting?
In about 2 seconds they're going to go ape shit.

Tommorow might just kill me. And to think, when I was younger, I thought it'd be fun to run away.

Me

darken_my_night @ 2005-02-01T21:16:00

2005-02-02T02:17:06Z

Fuck. Yeah.

~*Lorin*~

1st Post

2004-10-16T02:02:06Z

Comment to be added.~Larin~